Lexie: [narrating] Grief may be a thing we all have in common, but it looks different on everyone.
Mark: It isn't just death we have to grieve. It's life. It's loss. It's change.
Alex: And when we wonder why it has to suck so much sometimes, has to hurt so bad. The thing we gotta try to remember is that it can turn on a dime.
Izzie: That's how you stay alive. When it hurts so much you can't breathe, that's how you survive.
Derek: By remembering that one day, somehow, impossibly, you won't feel this way. It won't hurt this much.
Bailey: Grief comes in its own time for everyone, in its own way.
Owen: So the best we can do, the best anyone can do, is try for honesty.
Meredith: The really crappy thing, the very worst part of grief is that you can't control it.
Arizona: The best we can do is try to let ourselves feel it when it comes.
Callie: And let it go when we can.
Meredith: The very worst part is that the minute you think you're past it, it starts all over again.
Cristina: And always, every time, it takes your breath away.
Meredith: There are five stages of grief. They look different on all of us, but there are always five.
Alex: Denial.
Derek: Anger.
Bailey: Bargaining.
Lexie: Depression.
Richard: Acceptance.

Richard: What happened?
Bailey: Is it her brain?
Cristina: No, it's hypokalemia.
Alex: We couldn't control the eurythmias.
Cristina: Her pressures dropping off a cliff.
Alex: Get me an intubation tray.
Cristina: Alex. She signed a DNR.
Alex: Shut up Yang!
Cristina: She knew this might happen, that's why she signed it.
Alex: I don't give a crap what she signed.
Cristina: Alex, it's not what she wants.
Alex: (Izzie flatlines) Get a crash cart! (he starts CPR)
Bailey: Karev, if she doesn't...
Alex: Look at her, get a crash cart!
Richard: Oh, screw the DNR. Hand me those paddles.
Bailey: Yang, take over compressions to her back
Cristina: I got it, I got it.
Richard: 1, 2, 3. (they turn her over) Hand down. Ok. Hand down. Charge to 300.

Alex: Izzie look at me. Open your eyes!
Cristina: Page Shepherd. Page the Chief, and Bailey right now!

Cristina: Way to go dipwad, telling your wife you're figuring out how to off her.
Alex: Oh, mind your own bus... Wait... how did you know that?
Cristina: (holding back tears) She told me.
Alex: (walks into Izzie's room) You remember?
Izzie: Pillow or morphine. I got the whole thing.
Alex: Oh, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean that.
Izzie: Of course you didn't. You love me too much to shoot me up with morphine, even if you asked me to. And my stupid corked brain is coming back.
Alex: (hugging her tightly) Oh my god, I was so scared. I mean I would have loved you no matter what. You're back. You're back. (Izzie goes limp) Izz? (her heart starts to fail) Iz? Izzie? YANG!

Alex: What's your CRIT?
Izzie: Ugh! This is disgusting. I can't believe we serve it to the patients. (Alex points to a flash card) You keep asking for lime jello and don't like it. So stop giving it to me.
Alex: You get mad if I don't. Ok, now, what's your CRIT?
Izzie: I don't know. I'm tired.
Alex: What's O'Malley doing tomorrow?
Izzie: Joining the army. I need a break.
Alex: You don't think I need a break? Suck it up.
Izzie: What? God! Back off! I'm sorry if this is hard for you, but you are not the one with the short term memory of a carrot. (Alex slams her tray in the sink) Hey, go ahead. Get it off your chest. It's not like I'm gonna remember in 5 minutes.
Alex: Ok, I'm not the one with a carrot for a brain. But, I'm married to it. 'Cause of some crock of a wedding we walked into only because the two of us thought you'd be dead within a week. You made me promise you that you wouldn't live like this. So now what the hell am I supposed to do? Smother you with a pillow? Shoot you up with an overdose of morphine? Not really psyched about that! Leave you? Not really psyched about that either! So I guess I'm kind of screwed right? I mean, not as bad as you, but not a freakin walk in the park either! I'm sorry Iz.
Izzie: No, I told you to get it off your chest. You did.
Alex: Did you forget yet?
Izzie: Nope. Not yet. Give me a minute.

Cristina: She just had brain surgery, and an incredibly aggressive course of IL2. She needs rest.
Alex: She needs to exercise whatever memory she's got left before it all turns to mush.
Cristina: Well, she's not gonna heal with you barking orders at her like a cave man.
Alex: Butt out Yang.
Cristina: You know what, she's my patient. I don't care if you're her husband.
Alex: Look, she...
Cristina: You wanna see how fast I can get your visiting hours don't to zero?
Alex: She signed a DNR. She signed a frickin DNR and made me promise she'd come out of this with a life. Not in a hospital bed, not with no brain. I had to promise she'd have a life. You wanna know what happens if she can't make any new memories? Forget about being a doctor. She's gonna need round the clock baby sitters. We get an apartment together, she can't even find a way to the damn toilet. Tracker on her ankle incase, god forbid, she wanders out the front door!
Cristina: Alex, you can handle this. She will get better.
Alex: Maybe. Maybe not. It's on me. Her future is on me.

Izzie: (reads) Shepherd got your whole tumor. Oh my god, Alex, why didn't you tell me. Oh my god (alex points to "Your memory sucks!" ) Oh.
Alex: But, we're working on it. You remember what time you woke up this morning?
Izzie: Um, not exactly.
Alex; 7:45
Izzie: 7:45. O'Malley joined the army. What!
Alex: Yeah he's gonna be a trauma surgeon in Iraq. What time did you wake up?
Izzie: 7:45. He's gonna get killed.
Alex: Yeah, we're dealing with it.
Izzie: Did you know about this George thing?
Cristina: Yep, can and fodder. I'm just gonna take some more blood.
Alex: Last time we checked your potassium was 6.3. When did you wake up?
Izzie: Um, I'm... really I can't quite remember.
Alex: 7:45. 6.3. 7:45
Izzie: O'Malley joined the army? George?
Alex: We're dealing with it. What's your potassium?
Izzie: I...
Alex: Iz, what's your potassium?
Cristina: You know what, why don't we just give her the chart to read and try to memorize. Ok, I can talk to you about her hypokalemia.

Cristina: Are you gonna chew?
Meredith: Mmmm... my dragged under the bus guy's in angio. They're gonna page me any minute. How's Izzie? Is she retaining anything?
Alex: No.
Bailey: Ok, at 6pm your idiotic colleague George O'Malley will finish his surgery with the Chief.
Callie: And, at 6pm you will be standing beside us in the OR hallway, prepared to join in an intervention.
Bailey: What polite company might like to call an intervention. Though, I'm not sure interventions involve whooping people on the behind. With a belt.
Alex: What, he's got a drinking problem now?
Meredith: He joined the army.
Cristina: What?
Alex: 007? He can't go to the army. He's the guy that gets killed.
Cristina: He's the guy that gets killed cleaning his own gun
Bailey: Grey, is going to coax him back as a loving friend. (to Cristina) You are going to use logic, and reason to point out the idiocy of his ways. Stevens will make sad cancer eyes. And, if all of that doesn't work, Karev, you're gonna pull out your... I was raised out back with the trash cans roots, and just beat the crap out of him.
Alex: 6 o'clock.
Callie: 6'o'clock.

Alex: She's like the woman who couldn't remember her husband was dead. We had to keep telling her every 5 minutes.
Derek: It's a perfectly normal post operative haze.
Alex: Or, the bleeding during the procedure blitzed her short term retention. Did you screw up her brain?
Derek: Karev, I'll be back. Try and stay calm. Freaking her out is not gonna help. (Der walks away)
Alex: Wake up.

Izzie: Did you get the whole thing? Did you get the whole tumor out?
Derek: Just let me finish my exam. Can you tell me your name?
Izzie: My name is Isobel Stevens, it's 2009, and I'm in the neuro ICU at Seattle Grace hospital. Did you get the damn thing out?
Derek: Go the whole damn thing.
Izzie: Oh, you got it?
Derek: Yeah.
Izzie: Oh god, you go the whole thing. And I can talk, and I know my name, and I'm not a turnip.
Alex: Nope.
Izzie: No offense.
Derek: No.
Izzie: You are a great surgeon, but I really thought I was gonna be a turnip. This is so unbelievably great.
Cristina: Your kidneys are a little sluggish, so we're just gonna keep and eye on your electrolytes for a few hours. Your post op CRIT was fine.
Izzie: Ok, good. Good. How did the surgery go? Did you get the brain tumor? Did you get it out?
Alex: Iz, you just asked him that. We just talked about it.
Derek: No, no it's ok. She's gonna be foggy for a while. The tumor's out. There was a little bleeding during the post.
Izzie: You got it?
Derek: Yeah.
Izzie: All of it?
Derek: Mhmmm.
Izzie: That's amazing. Derek Shepherd, you are a hero. And I know that that's Derek Shepherd, and you're Alex, and you should kiss me. Alex, I don't have a brain tumor. I'm tumor free.
Alex: Yes you are.
Izzie: What's wrong? Why do you look weird?
Cristina: Oh, nothing. Nothing. Your kidneys are a little slow, we're just gonna watch them.
Izzie: Ok, so you'll just re-check my electrolytes in an hour?
Cristina: Mhmmm.
Izzie: Ok... How did the surgery go? Did you get the tumor?
Derek: We did. Tumors gone. There was a little bit of bleeding, but we took care of that.
Izzie: You got it?
Derek: Mhmmm.
Izzie: Oh my god. And I can talk, and you didn't kill me. What's wrong with you people, we should be celebrating.

Alex: Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up...
Izzie: I have a headache.
Alex: You're up... You're up and you're talking. You talked right? Talk!
Izzie: Ow, I said I have a headache.
Alex: Page Shepherd.
Izzie: Ow.
Alex: Sorry.

Bailey: Any changes overnight?
Cristina: No.
Bailey: (pager goes off) Somebody had better go make a coffee run, you all look like hell.
George: I've gotta be in surgery in 10 minutes. Um, Mer, will you let me know?
Meredith: Yeah. We should go too. It's probably gonna be a while.
Alex: Shepherd said she'd wake up in the morning. What did he tell you? Was that all crap? What did he say?
Meredith: He said it may be a while.
Cristina: She's gonna wake up.

Grey's Anatomy Quotes

When we say things like "people don't change" it drives scientist crazy because change is literally the only constant in all of science. Energy. Matter. It's always changing, morphing, merging, growing, dying. It's the way people try not to change that's unnatural. The way we cling to what things were instead of letting things be what they are. The way we cling to old memories instead of forming new ones. The way we insist on believing despite every scientific indication that anything in this lifetime is permanent. Change is constant. How we experience change that's up to us. It can feel like death or it can feel like a second chance at life. If we open our fingers, loosen our grips, go with it, it can feel like pure adrenaline. Like at any moment we can have another chance at life. Like at any moment, we can be born all over again.

Meredith

Doesn't matter how tough we are, trauma always leaves a scar. It follows us home, it changes our lives, trauma messes everybody up, but maybe that's the point. All the pain and the fear and the crap. Maybe going through all of that is what keeps us moving forward. It's what pushes us. Maybe we have to get a little messed up, before we can step up.

Alex (narrating)