My son David. He was... beautiful. He was whip smart. He was passionate. He was... as a mother and son, we had a rocky relationship. I think that was because he must have inherited all my worst traits. He was rash. He always spoke his mind. He always thought his opinion was the only opinion that mattered. We loved each other, but we had a hard time getting along with each other. The last few years, we hardly saw each other at all and I... I regret that. I always will. I hope to God he knew how much I loved him. He was a shining light to me. I thank God that light will continue to shine, brightly, in his son, my grandson Scotty. This morning I was getting ready for this and I... I tried to remember all the things that we quarreled over, the things that were so important to me I could not let them go. They were STUPID and I am sorry. I wish... I wish instead I'd told him that I'd prayed for him all the days of his life and I know he's found his place now, in the house of the Lord, forever.

Juile