When I drowned, it was different for you than it was for me. So...
MEREDITH: "When I drowned, it was different for you than it was for me. Something happened to me, and I really don't know how to explain it without sounding like... I just feel different - I wanna be better at everything, and I wanna let you in. I swear."
DEREK: "Did you practice that?"
MEREDITH: "With hand gestures, but I dropped those. Just, now is not the time to give up on me, okay? That's what I'm saying."