You know how you call a guy whose wife died a widower? Or, if your parents die, you're an orphan. You know, there's no word for someone whose kids die. Because it's like the worst thing that can happen.
Bucky: Whatever happened with Walker, it wasn't your fault. I get it. It's just that shield's the closest thing I've got left to a family. So when you retired it, it made me feel like I had nothing left. Made me question everything: you, Steve, me. You know, I've got his, uh, I've got his book. And, uh, I just figured if it worked for him, then it'd work for me. Sam: I understand, man. But Steve is gone. And this might be a surprise, but it doesn't matter what Steve thought. You gotta stop looking to other people to tell you who you are. Let me ask you. You still having those nightmares? Bucky: All the time. It means I remember. It means a part of me is still there. Which means a part of the Winter Soldier is still in me. Sam; You up for a little tough love? You want to climb out of the hell you're in, do the work. Do it. Bucky: I've been making amends. Sam: Nah. You weren't amending; you were avenging. You were stopping all the wrongdoers you enabled as the Winter Soldier because you thought it would bring you closure. You go to these people and say sorry because you think it'll make you feel better, right? But you gotta make them feel better. You gotta go to them and be of service. I'm sure there's at least one person in that book who needs closure about something, and you're the only person who can give it to 'em. Bucky: Probably a dozen. Sam: That's cool. Start with one.