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Krista Vernoff on "Haunt You Every Day"

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You've watched "Haunt You Every Day" and shared your thoughts with us, as well as with fellow fans, via comments and forum topics. Now it's time to read what Krista Vernoff has to say about the fifth Grey's Anatomy episode of the fall.

On the show's writers blog, Krista posted some thoughts on "Haunt You Every Day." Follow the link at the bottom for her full entry. Excerpts below...

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I love Halloween (you can't believe how excited I am to dress my 7-month-old in a monkey costume and carry her around the neighborhood, no one can tell me I'm too old for that!!) I'm ranting, as usual, but my point is... Meredith.

MerDer Love or Hate?

That moment where she tells Mark that Ellis never got Halloween together and didn't approve of knocking on doors, begging for food... that moment explains so so so much to me about our lovely, broken Meredith.

That her first experience trick or treating is taking an earless boy around the hospital to make his pro-bono surgery happen, I find it heartbreaking.

And I love that Mark points out to her that she fell pretty far from the Ellis tree. I think it was critically important to Meredith to hear those words, because Mer is feeling the fear that she will die alone like her Mom. Because Derek said he might find someone else before she's ready. And she doesn't know how to get ready.

Meredith is an emotional cripple who's unwilling or unable to lay her ass down on a therapist's couch for the many years it takes to work through issues like she has.

Meredith Grey's version of therapy - her very best idea - is to bring her mother's ashes to work. Y'know, in a strange way it makes sense.

She understands she's been sticking her mom in the back of her closet, literally and metaphorically - and that if she doesn't start to look at this stuff (i.e.: herself) she's in danger of dying alone (i.e.; losing Derek forever). Life is hard isn't it?

But I love and applaud Meredith's willingness to try - as she explains to Derek, when his hands are covered in mommy dust and he's looking at her like maybe, just maybe he should escort her up to the psych ward, "This is me trying."
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Hey Kathy you really do have lots of hope for all merder fans, i alway feel better after reading your post. But still derek did upset me alot regarding mer.

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I really don't think Derek is wanting to date because he really wants too!! I think he feels he needs to...to push Meredith in the right direction. Because last night when he told the chief he had to start dating....it was so obvious he didn't want to! He wants Meredith to make a commitment and I truly think by him moving in the other direction and naturally when that new female doc arrives on the scene...that is all it will take...Meredith will go after her MAN!! I can't wait. The anticipation until that happens will drive us all CRAZY! I hope Merdith really shows a different side to her that we hardly ever see...be more aggressive to Derek..he always makes the first move and he is always pursuing her...it will be nice to see her pursue him for a change! I can see the smile on Derek's face if that were to happen! Lets hope it does and SOON! I really hope SHonda don't make us wait to long for Mer and Der to get together. I know it will happen..I just hope it will be this season so we can enjoy watching it before this season ends!

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I swear to God derek upsets me, why does he want to stop dating? He is just being unreasonable. Grrrrrr.......!!!

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I loved the episode but Krista wrote an horrid blog! Meredith deserves respect! Team Meredith and Team MerDer! (I will boycott the show if Derek will start to date with the new Addison but they will be always the best!)

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I loved this episode! Don't understand what Mer is waiting for? She doesn't want Derek to date with Sidney, but she doesn't feel like being together with mcDreamy??
But I don't like Erica Hahn, I find her so annoying!

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