In TV Guideâ€™s July 9 cover story, the choreographer, dancer, singer and American Idol judge speaks out about her triumph over various trials in life, such as a highly publicized divorce (from actor Emilio Estevez) and ongoing eating disorder that once dropped her weight to a low of 83 pounds.
â€œIâ€™ve endured life journeys that people never in a million years would ever think of experiencing,â€ she says. â€œI have risen from the bowels of hell and come out tripping and singing and dancing. Iâ€™ve always been counted out, but I come back, like a stealth warrior.â€
And with her new (critically lambasted) reality show, Hey Paula, Abdul hopes to set the record straight.
â€œWhat I do feel proud about myself is I donâ€™t give up,â€ she says. â€œIâ€™ve worked extremely hard to maintain the integrity and level of class and goodness that I have. I screw up just like everyone else. The difference with me is that I get to teach the rest of the world lessons, to learn how to bounce back a lot quicker.â€
In the end, Paula's ego appears to rival that of Simon Cowell.
â€œPartially [I decided to do this show because of] the fact I know my life purpose: Having the uncanny ability to tap into the heartstrings of people and make them feel theyâ€™ll be OK. And that if I can get through these hard times, so can you,â€ she says.
And, lastly, what kind of boss is she?
â€œI wish I could work for someone like Paula Abdul. Honest to God, I am the kindest-of-kind human beings.â€