Paula Abdul is difficult to read.

On one hand, she sounds quite laid back about the recent American Idol blunder, during which she judged a Jason Castro performance that hadn't happened yet.

“I have fun poking fun at a situation that’s so ridiculous. I’m the queen of taking the seriousness out of [it] … I loved that people laughed, it was funny,” she said. “Honestly, it was a silly thing [that happened on Idol]. We were all confused … I did exactly what the producers told me to do … It’s all good.”

On the other hand, well, let's head what Abdul had to say about living in pain.

“Pain is very daunting — it creates isolation,” said said. “For me, the smile on my face oftentimes is not met with how I feel inside."

What's wrong, Paula?

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