Helen: And how is Lauren?
Lauren: The truth?
Helen: Preferably. What are these?
Lauren: They are Black Beauties. Enphetemanines. They're Rohan's. I didn't --
Helen: OK.
Lauren: This whole place is like a trigger for me, and not even for my sobriety, for my sanity. I wanted to leave. Leyla said that she would quit if I left. The E.D. needs me. New Amsterdam needs me.
Helen: Well, that doesn't seem very fair.
Lauren: Fair. Who says I deserve fair?
Helen: Lauren, whatever you've done you have to let that go. You have to forgive yourself.
Lauren: I can't. I don't want to.
Helen: So you're just going to keep punishing yourself?
Lauren: It's what I deserve.
Helen: Lauren, look at me. Come here, sweetheart. Come here. Now, you listen to me. If you need to leave for your sobriety and your sanity, then you go. Do you understand? Because nothing is more important.