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Travis: What’s up?
Vic: Nothing. I’ve spent all weekend thinking about what’s up. I just want two seconds to not think about that. I just want to think about shellfish.
Travis: This is our thing, right? This is what we do. We take turns forcing the other person to talk, so rip the scab. Just do it.
Vic: Remember when we used to go out at night back when the world was open? And before you’d head out, you’d say to your friends, text me when you get home, just so you’d know all your people were good. You’d know they’d made it home safe and sound, right? That’s like sacred friend stuff, like humans evolving beyond beast stuff. That is consideration and buddy love you even when you’re too drunk to walk straight.
Travis: Oh my god, remember how hammered you were at Miller’s birthday last year?
Vic: But she was home, Travis. Breonna Taylor was home. She could have texted her best friend, ‘home, xo,’ and that friend would have gone to bed thinking, ‘Great, everyone’s home safe and sound,’ and then she was killed in the middle of the night in her home in her pajamas.
Travis: Vic, I’m sorry.
Vic: I just don’t want to think about any of it, you know. Just one day, Travis. Tomorrow I will pick it all back up again, I promise, but today I just want to put my feelings in the freezer ‘cause I’m spent and I just need one day. I will fight all future battles and I will care as much as I do now, but I’m exhausted. And I just need a day.
Andy: How are you holding up?
Maya: If by holding up, you mean stuffing my face with cookies every chance I get to avoid thinking about the fact that Carina’s heading into the belly of the COVID beast and that the immigration system is as broken as the justice system, then I am holding up incredibly well.
Andy: Which kind of cookies?
Maya: Get out of here.
Carina: Marry me. Marry me. I don’t want to just get married because the government says we have to, and I still think marriage was meant to keep women as property, but I’d much rather do something that I don’t want to than lose you.
Maya: Carina, I don’t know if I want kids, and the world is a mess right.
Carina: Yes, the world is a mess, and the world is changing right now as we’re standing here, and it’s beautiful. We can worry about kids later, but what I know is that I want to be in this beautiful, mess of a changing world with you, please. Please, marry me.
Maya: Yes.
Maya: Carina, we have learned more about each other in the last two hours than we have in our entire relationship. I should have known that you don’t want to get married and you do want to have babies.
Carina: I knew it. I knew you would freak out on me eventually.
Maya: Carina, everything you said is right. I have made no effort to learn your culture or your language. I do not understand what you’re going through with all your visa stuff. Maybe, we’re just not right for each other.
Carina: OK, so do you want to break up temporarily or are we breaking up because we’re not right for each other.
Maya: I didn’t say breakup. I said take a break.
Carina: Frankly, I don’t understand the difference. Do you want to get married? I married you the day I moved into this apartment. I don’t believe in ticking a box and calling that a marriage. I believe in building a life together with the person you want to spend it with every single day. When I moved in to this house for me, that was a marriage.
Maya: That is not how it works.
Carina: Marriage, the kind the government says is OK, puts an obligation on love. Marriage ruins family. Marriage is just a made up financial…
Maya: Marriage is what can keep up together.
Carina: Exactly, it is crazy the only recourse I have to stay in Seattle, to stay my life with you is to sign a piece of paper, saying I will never leave you.
Maya: I thought we were building a future together.
Carina: We are. We don’t need to be married to do that.
Maya: But you’re moving back to Italy.
Carina: What do you want me to do about that? That wasn’t my plan either. Do you think I want to move back to a country that reminds me of my dead mother, my dead brother, and my very difficult father? I’m sorry I have to leave. If there was any other way…
Maya: There is. We could get married.
Carina: Um, I’m not getting married just because of the visa.
Maya: Just because?
Carina: You know what I mean.
Maya: I really don’t apparently.
Carina: Maya, this is not something you do to solve a problem.
Maya: I don’t see any other way.
Carina: We are doing the other way. I’ve already left Grey Sloan. I got a job in Italy. I’m about to go to the airport. We can’t get married just because you want to be apart from me.
Maya: That’s not why we would be getting married.
Carina: That’s why we moved in together.
Maya: That was just the bureaucracy of it.
Carina: So is this marriage idea. It’s just bureaucracy. The only reason it’s coming up is because I’m not from this country, and I can stay in yours. That it’s.
Maya: That’s it? That’s a pretty good reason.
Jack: You don’t need to do all of this.
Inara: All what?
Jack: I like you so much, and I care about you. I love taking care of you and Marcus.
Inara: So that means I can't be sexy because you like taking care of me and my kid?
Jack: No, no, that’s not coming out right. What I’m saying is you don’t need to be something that you’re not because I did some crazy things in my past. I don’t need that from you.
Inara: I’m not. Jack, I’m a whole person. Believe it or not, I like sex too.
Jack: I know you do. I’m just saying it doesn’t have to be all wild, and with your history…
Inara: Oh, I see because you rescued me from an abusive situation, you think I’m made of glass.
Jack: That’s not.
Inara: I’m not just some damsel you need to keep rescuing, Jack.
That’s not what makes you a man, Benjamin. It’s what would have made you a dead man.
Mother
Mother: Benjamin Warren.
Ben: Ma?
Mother: I did not raise a fool.
Ben: Why are you here?
Mother: Because you’re scared, and that makes you stupid.
Maya: I hate this.
Carina: I know.
Maya: Everything you said is true. I was so worried about you leaving, that I never asked you how you felt. I just assumed that you were happy to go home for a little bit.
Carina: Home?
Maya: I know your home home is in the south, I just thought…
Carina: Italy hasn’t felt like home since my mama left when I was 16 years old. It just became the place where I lived. I didn’t find my home until I met you. You’re my home, and I’m being kicked out of my home in the middle of a pandemic. It sucks.
Maya: And you’ve been pretending it was no big deal so I wouldn’t lose it.
Maya: So not only are we going to be apart for who knows how long, you’re going to spending your days and nights with your ex sex friend who needs you to solve all of her problems.
Carina: Every time you say we’re going to be apart, you say it like you’re mad at me, like it’s my fault.
Maya: I’m not mad. I just… didn’t you know months ago your visa was up?
Carina: Oh so you are mad at me for it.
Maya: That’s not what I said.
Carina: Maya, all I need from you right now is to be supportive in this terrifying time…
Maya: I am supporting.
Carina: And not make me feel worse about it, but all you seem to do is worry about how it will negatively impact you and fixate on little details like who I’m going to be working with. Do you know any specifics about my visa? Do you know what it takes to get it renewed? When I tried to tell you about it, you called it my visa thing, and your eyes glaze over. I’ve told you three times. No, I cannot get a waiver. This is not how the US government works, and it’s definitely not how it works in the middle of the pandemic.
Maya: I’m sorry.
Carina: You don’t know what it feels like to be so easily removed from the place you’re trying to make your home, to be kicked out of the country where you’re trying to build a life because of bureaucracy, and to be terrified if you don’t do everything exactly right, if you don’t dot every ‘i,’ cross every ‘t,’ you risk never being allowed in the country again. Never being allowed, Maya. Do you know what that feels like?
Maya: No, I don’t.
Carina: Yeah, you can’t.
Andy: Warren, I know getting the surgery isn't easy, but I’m really glad you’re doing it.
Ben: Yeah, well, I figured I owed it to your old man.
Carina: So you never came out to your parents?
Maya: My mom knows. Pretty sure my dad does too, but I never officially told him.
Carina: Were you afraid to tell your dad?
Maya: Yes, but less because I was scared he’d yell at me. That was gonna happen no matter what I did. I guess it just felt private. I mean I’d never been in a relationship with a woman, so I figured if I didn’t tell my family about every single guy I slept with, why should I tell them about the women?
Carina: Fair enough.
Maya: Honestly, until I met you, I think a part of me always assumed I’d end up marrying a man.
Carina: Really?
Maya: But now…
Carina: I mean I guess I can see that. Your dad kind of drilled a sense of ‘my way is the only way’ into you. That’s probably why I never want to get married. My parents made it look so unappealing.
Maya: You don’t want to get married?
Carina: Oh no, I don’t believe in it.
