The Affair
Sundays 9:00 PM on ShowtimeThe Affair Season 4 Episode 9: "4.09" Quotes
Alison: So that's what you walk around with, every day?
Ben: When I got back home, I couldn't stand Heidi anymore. It wasn't her fault. It just, I wish she looked at me, the way she needed me. One night we got in bed and I tied her in bed on her stomach so I wouldn't have to look at her face, not even when Bodie started to cry. I got clean after that, and I haven't touched a drink since. I haven't touched her, either.
Alison: What happens to people like us?
Ben: What do you mean?
Alison: The ones who can't be forgiven.
Ben: The shrinks would say we need to forgive ourselves.
Alison: I can't.
Ben: So, you're just waiting to die?
Alison: Aren't you, if you're really being honest with yourself?
Ben: No. I want to live.
Alison: Don't mess with my heart, OK. I can't handle any more pain.
Ben: I know. I won't.
Alison: Promise?
Ben: I Promise.
I'm happy to keep talking; I'm just really starving, and I have to eat.
Ben
Alison: Ben, are you married?
Ben: Why would I be here if I was married?
What's happening between us, it doesn't happen to me very often. Does it happen to you? Then why are you trying to fuck it up?
Ben
Ben, please, just be honest with me. I can take it. Just tell me who you are. Tell me the truth.
Alison
Why do you kill an ant? Why do you kill a mouse? Because you don't want it running around your house, Alison, because you don't want it bothering you.
Ben
